In thinking about this year, it has really been a formative turning point in my life. As I look forward to 2013, I wanted to take a look back at all I've made it through in 2012 to get here.
This year I...
- lived with 13 crazy strangers in a tiny house in DC, yet felt so alone the whole time
- had to get used to going out and doing things on my own there
- felt anger towards how I was treated by roommates, teachers, and advisers in DC
- felt like I didn't have a voice to do anything about it
- felt homesick from being away from my family, friends, and boyfriend for so long
- was depressed and doubtful of my future after 4 months of job searching without success
- was scared of what graduating and being independent meant
- realized I'd gained weight and my clothes weren't fitting right; felt insecure about my body
- made myself never miss a day at the gym and count my calories
- made myself go through and organize almost everything in my room/that I own with my free, jobless time
- was disappointed that I'd have to be an intern, yet again
- stressed about adjusting to two new work environments at the same time
- put so much pressure on myself to do an amazing job so I'd get hired full time
It has been a year for growth and for getting my life in order. After all the craziness and struggle that has been this year, I'm finally starting to feel like I'm in a really good place. I'm getting to where I envisioned myself to be as I am half-way to turning 22.
I have a steady job that I really love in the city that I love and where my family is, I could not be happier or more supported in my relationship, and I am starting to feel confident in my body for the first time ever after getting into shape and losing a few pounds.
I'm sure there will be many more challenges ahead in 2013, but right now I am celebrating all the progress I've made. Thanks to all of you who had my back, listened, and supported me through it all.
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Friday, December 21, 2012
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
I'm Thankful for My Job!
I am happy to announce I have been offered and accepted a full-time position at Audiogon! I have a real salary and benefits! It's like I'm an adult or something!
I am absolutely loving working there. It is exactly what I envisioned myself doing for my first job. I am so thankful that it is going well and that they like what I am doing enough to hire me on. It has been such a stressful year, and I've been looking for this moment for so long. I definitely don't take it for granted. I am so glad I can take a little sigh of relief knowing that I have something in place now, and I am so happy that it feels so right since I've never been very sure what I wanted to do for a career.
I also found out that I get to go to Las Vegas in January for the job, which I'm really looking forward to. We'll be going for The Home Entertainment Show and The Consumer Electronics Show. I hope I can learn much more about audio equipment there, and I'm sure it will be a really fun time getting to know my coworkers better. Vegas is just so cool.
Happy Thanksgiving, and I hope you have as much to be thankful for as I do.
(and Go Tigers!)
I am absolutely loving working there. It is exactly what I envisioned myself doing for my first job. I am so thankful that it is going well and that they like what I am doing enough to hire me on. It has been such a stressful year, and I've been looking for this moment for so long. I definitely don't take it for granted. I am so glad I can take a little sigh of relief knowing that I have something in place now, and I am so happy that it feels so right since I've never been very sure what I wanted to do for a career.
I also found out that I get to go to Las Vegas in January for the job, which I'm really looking forward to. We'll be going for The Home Entertainment Show and The Consumer Electronics Show. I hope I can learn much more about audio equipment there, and I'm sure it will be a really fun time getting to know my coworkers better. Vegas is just so cool.
Happy Thanksgiving, and I hope you have as much to be thankful for as I do.
(and Go Tigers!)
Monday, September 17, 2012
Another Job Update!
Since my internship at Complete Public Relations is only a few hours a week, I decided to look for another position to fill up the rest of my time and get more experience that can hopefully open more doors for a full time job in a few months. I ended up finding the perfect position and got the job!
I am now working for Audiogon as a part time marketing and social media assistant. I'll be working 10-25 hours a week there, and I can work flexible hours from home, which will be so nice and allow me to work around my internship at Complete. Audiogon is an e-commerce website for high end audio equipment.
I am excited to get experience working directly for a company, as well as for an agency, to see the differences and get a clearer idea of what kind of place I'd like to work full time. I'm lucky to be doing what I love - social media!
I am now working for Audiogon as a part time marketing and social media assistant. I'll be working 10-25 hours a week there, and I can work flexible hours from home, which will be so nice and allow me to work around my internship at Complete. Audiogon is an e-commerce website for high end audio equipment.
I am excited to get experience working directly for a company, as well as for an agency, to see the differences and get a clearer idea of what kind of place I'd like to work full time. I'm lucky to be doing what I love - social media!
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Job Update
I am happy to announce that I recently accepted a fall internship position with Complete Public Relations! An internship with an agency will give me the hands on knowledge and experience I need to secure a full time position in the industry.
Complete has a unique approach to public relations focusing on media and crisis communications. They have done work with political campaigns and non-profits, as well. I feel my experience in media with WSPA-TV, non-profits with Safe Harbor, and politics with Congressmen Clyburn's office aligns well with what they do.
I am very excited to get back to work after a nice summer off, especially with such a new and growing firm in Greenville. I am sure there is a lot to learn.
Complete has a unique approach to public relations focusing on media and crisis communications. They have done work with political campaigns and non-profits, as well. I feel my experience in media with WSPA-TV, non-profits with Safe Harbor, and politics with Congressmen Clyburn's office aligns well with what they do.
I am very excited to get back to work after a nice summer off, especially with such a new and growing firm in Greenville. I am sure there is a lot to learn.
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Oh, The Job Search
I graduated! ...Yay?
While this should be something you look forward to, after the excitement of the day itself, it can be quite a drag because of the impending job search that looms ahead. As I troll the job boards, it makes me wonder, is this really the best way to do things? Does this system really get people in the right jobs? Will I ever find the right position?
Clearly, I'm very much a proponent of the web and social media, so I am mostly looking on career search sites and through Clemson's job boards for jobs, as well as on company's websites and on social media. However, what if I'm missing something in my scanning? My parents are very into just sending your resume to different companies or walking right into their offices, whether they have a position posted or not. It seems a little old school to me, and would that really be worth all the effort? Is that effective? Do I just have to know the right people?
And its hard to know what the right protocol is. Should I call after submitting my application? How long should I wait? Should I email? Should I call the person Mr. or Ms. or by their first name? What do I say when they ask me about where else I've applied or how my job search is going? Am I being confident in my skills or do I sound too cocky?
Then, say you do get a call and an interview. You're joyous, but stressed to the max. During an interview, you're not even really you. The ball of nerves in your body does half of the blubbering, and the rest is your pre-planned "right" answers to those typical interview questions. It seems like anyone can research good answers to these usual inquiries and just fake it until they make it. Does it really show that much about what kind of worker you would be? Then again, no one wants to actually have to take a test or do a mini project during an interview either, which would probably only be a fraction of your best work due to the nerves. So we're stuck with this whole talk-about-different-hypothetical-work-situations interview thing.
Then after the interview, comes the waiting game. You are keeping up with the company and what they are doing on social media and their website, and you think about how great it would be to work there. Sometimes this goes on for months. You drive past the building thinking, "soon I could be working there." You invest your time researching and a piece of your heart into this one, because you felt the interview went well. Then you get "the call" where they tell you they filled the position, and its like getting broken up with. They just ended the relationship between you and this job that you built up in your head. And you think to yourself, could I really have done anything more to get that job? It may have been some tiny little word you said or quirk you had that you will never know made up their minds. Will you ever get closure and get an actual reason for the loss? Probably not.
Or say you do get the job, then you get calls from the other places you applied down the line. They want to talk to you, but you are committed, and you're forced to ponder for a second what could have been. That is a dangerous thought.
It seems like a traumatic cycle to go through over and over again, and I wonder if it keeps people in jobs that aren't exactly right longer than necessary just to avoid the whole process. I'm lucky enough that I don't have to worry right now about making money to have a roof over my head or feed myself or support anyone else (thanks, mom and dad), and I'm still going crazy about it! How on earth am I supposed to find the job that fits me...and if I do, will the company think I fit them?
Is it just me or does this all sound a little crazy? But I guess no one has thought of a better alternative so this is what we are stuck with. Congrats Class of 2012, and may your period of unemployed stress be as short as possible.
While this should be something you look forward to, after the excitement of the day itself, it can be quite a drag because of the impending job search that looms ahead. As I troll the job boards, it makes me wonder, is this really the best way to do things? Does this system really get people in the right jobs? Will I ever find the right position?
Clearly, I'm very much a proponent of the web and social media, so I am mostly looking on career search sites and through Clemson's job boards for jobs, as well as on company's websites and on social media. However, what if I'm missing something in my scanning? My parents are very into just sending your resume to different companies or walking right into their offices, whether they have a position posted or not. It seems a little old school to me, and would that really be worth all the effort? Is that effective? Do I just have to know the right people?
And its hard to know what the right protocol is. Should I call after submitting my application? How long should I wait? Should I email? Should I call the person Mr. or Ms. or by their first name? What do I say when they ask me about where else I've applied or how my job search is going? Am I being confident in my skills or do I sound too cocky?
Then, say you do get a call and an interview. You're joyous, but stressed to the max. During an interview, you're not even really you. The ball of nerves in your body does half of the blubbering, and the rest is your pre-planned "right" answers to those typical interview questions. It seems like anyone can research good answers to these usual inquiries and just fake it until they make it. Does it really show that much about what kind of worker you would be? Then again, no one wants to actually have to take a test or do a mini project during an interview either, which would probably only be a fraction of your best work due to the nerves. So we're stuck with this whole talk-about-different-hypothetical-work-situations interview thing.
Then after the interview, comes the waiting game. You are keeping up with the company and what they are doing on social media and their website, and you think about how great it would be to work there. Sometimes this goes on for months. You drive past the building thinking, "soon I could be working there." You invest your time researching and a piece of your heart into this one, because you felt the interview went well. Then you get "the call" where they tell you they filled the position, and its like getting broken up with. They just ended the relationship between you and this job that you built up in your head. And you think to yourself, could I really have done anything more to get that job? It may have been some tiny little word you said or quirk you had that you will never know made up their minds. Will you ever get closure and get an actual reason for the loss? Probably not.
Or say you do get the job, then you get calls from the other places you applied down the line. They want to talk to you, but you are committed, and you're forced to ponder for a second what could have been. That is a dangerous thought.
It seems like a traumatic cycle to go through over and over again, and I wonder if it keeps people in jobs that aren't exactly right longer than necessary just to avoid the whole process. I'm lucky enough that I don't have to worry right now about making money to have a roof over my head or feed myself or support anyone else (thanks, mom and dad), and I'm still going crazy about it! How on earth am I supposed to find the job that fits me...and if I do, will the company think I fit them?
Is it just me or does this all sound a little crazy? But I guess no one has thought of a better alternative so this is what we are stuck with. Congrats Class of 2012, and may your period of unemployed stress be as short as possible.
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Am I done yet?
Well, to be frank, this week sucked. Work has been really stressful and crazy. This is one of the busiest weeks of the year for tourism in DC, since it is Easter week, and the Capitol was so packed. I gave one tour, which turned out to be a nightmare since part of the group was late, and it was the last tour of the day so everything was closing up. People are so rude. They were late then complained that they didn't get to see enough. I'm not sure what people's expectations are, but I think the Capitol is really cool! I hate feeling like I let anyone down, but I think these people just had a bad attitude, and it wasn't me. I guess the crowds are getting to everyone. There were a lot of people gone from the office this week, too, so I was doing a lot. It was nice to have more responsibility and things to do, but also not so fun since I barely had time to take a breath or eat. I was also told I was going to be attending the Easter Egg Roll at the White House on Monday, but then a few days later learned that I couldn't go as an intern. That was a huge heartbreak. I mean, I never in a million years thought I would get to go to something like that so I was seriously ecstatic when I found out. Then after being so emotionally drained all week and looking forward to that to keep me going, finding out I wouldn't be able to go was really tough. Thank goodness I had Friday off, or I might have really gone crazy!
Thursday for theater class, we went to see Taming of the Shrew by Synetic Theater, but it wasn't typical Shakespeare at all. It was silent! There was music, but no words. It was also supposed to be a modern hip hop version set in a very smutty Hollywood-type city. It was bizarre, kind of crude, and I did not like it at all. I don't think anyone in the house did. It wasn't a great way to end my week or a good play to end this theater class on.
I came home on Thursday to find the cutest popcorn tin from my Aunt Jean. I definitely needed a pick-me-up so that was just perfect! She spoiled me too much when she was here, so I can't believe she sent me this popcorn, too!
Friday I decided to go to the Smithsonian National Zoo. I made the mistake of waiting to eat lunch until I got there. The zoo was crazy busy, and I had to wait probably almost 30 minutes in line to get food. I almost felt awful and faint, because I had to wait so long. It is not fun to feel that way when you are somewhere by yourself. Moments of weakness like that and being surrounded by so many families at a place like the zoo reminds me of how much better it is to do things with other people instead of alone. It is the times like those when I get a twinge of homesickness again and can't wait to just be with the people I love even doing the little, mundane things. In general, it was hard to walk anywhere without a person or a stroller in your way as it was so busy there. The zoo itself was cool though. Its very big, and the big draw is the Giant Panda habitat. I had never seen a panda before and seeing one up close was neat. I also liked the meerkats - really cute. There were some peacocks, which are just breathtaking, as well. It is a lot of walking though so I was beat when I finished.
Saturday, I was kind of at a loss as to what to do with myself, so I decided to check out the Pentagon City Mall. It was a pretty nice mall. I just did a lot of looking mostly, but I did finally find myself a graduation dress at Forever 21. I had been looking for a few weeks but didn't see anything that really hit me. I love what I got. I will be able to wear it to work and for other nice occasions, too. The best part is that its bright purple! Go Tigers! I also bought myself a Cherry Blossom Festival shirt at Union Station on my way home. That night there were fireworks down at the SW waterfront for the Cherry Blossom Festival, so I gathered up some of the roommates and off we went. It was a nice show, but then the metro was crazy for a while with the huge crowd leaving the area. We decided to try to find a restaurant or coffee shop to hang out at until the rush died down, but that was ultimately a failure so we just walked around for a good bit.
Today I was pretty bored and again didn't know what to do with myself. I did my fairly regular Sunday tradition of going to Eastern Market for my favorite crepe and to look around. I ended up just doing a work out video and watching some movies on my computer after that. I'm really getting to the point where I'm just ready to go home. Other than the few things I have planned for next weekend and when my parents are here to move me out the weekend after that, I'm done with everything I wanted to do and see here. Living with 14 other people in this tiny house is wearing on a person, this week at work was crazy, and I'm done with all of my schoolwork, so I'm counting down the days. I'm excited to get back to SC soon and be with my family and friends. I swear this experience has made me appreciate the South so much more. I'm craving some good BBQ and summer time fun. It is also scary though as going home approaches since I literally have no plans after graduation day on May 11. This has to be the first time in my life that has ever happened, and to a planner like me, that is pretty inconceivable in my mind. As much as I'd like to relax and travel before I land a job, like everyone is telling me to, there is no way I can just sit around and not be stressing until I find something. I want to start my life, and I want it to be the right thing, not just the available thing. I can't rest until I find it, but the job search has been pretty sparse so far.
With the semester drawing to a close, some of you may be wondering what this blog will be afterwards. Maybe you're not...but I guess I'm trying to answer myself on that question right now. I still want to keep it up, though I likely won't have as many sightseeing adventures to document. I'll probably do some general life update posts infrequently when something big happens or I take a trip. I definitely want to write more about PR and social media related topics. I've always wanted to since I started it, but I let the DC posts take priority for the time being. Maybe in my unemployment I'll finally have time to be as crafty as you would think I am from looking at my Pinterest boards and post about that! And I'll put it in writing right now so I stick to it - I want to try a diet when I get home, and I may write about how that goes. We'll see!
Sorry for the mildly depressing post, but no worries! I'm bringing out my favorite Coldplay and James Morrison tunes, which always feel so right and have gotten me through a lot. I'm hoping the next two weeks are much better than this one, and I'll be home before I know it.
Thursday for theater class, we went to see Taming of the Shrew by Synetic Theater, but it wasn't typical Shakespeare at all. It was silent! There was music, but no words. It was also supposed to be a modern hip hop version set in a very smutty Hollywood-type city. It was bizarre, kind of crude, and I did not like it at all. I don't think anyone in the house did. It wasn't a great way to end my week or a good play to end this theater class on.
I came home on Thursday to find the cutest popcorn tin from my Aunt Jean. I definitely needed a pick-me-up so that was just perfect! She spoiled me too much when she was here, so I can't believe she sent me this popcorn, too!
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| Popcorn tin from Aunt Jean |
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| Panda! |
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| Peacock |
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| Flamingos |
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| Meerkat |
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| Red fireworks |
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| Tons of gold fireworks during the finale |
With the semester drawing to a close, some of you may be wondering what this blog will be afterwards. Maybe you're not...but I guess I'm trying to answer myself on that question right now. I still want to keep it up, though I likely won't have as many sightseeing adventures to document. I'll probably do some general life update posts infrequently when something big happens or I take a trip. I definitely want to write more about PR and social media related topics. I've always wanted to since I started it, but I let the DC posts take priority for the time being. Maybe in my unemployment I'll finally have time to be as crafty as you would think I am from looking at my Pinterest boards and post about that! And I'll put it in writing right now so I stick to it - I want to try a diet when I get home, and I may write about how that goes. We'll see!
Sorry for the mildly depressing post, but no worries! I'm bringing out my favorite Coldplay and James Morrison tunes, which always feel so right and have gotten me through a lot. I'm hoping the next two weeks are much better than this one, and I'll be home before I know it.
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| Official pic with Congressman Clyburn |
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Exciting Times, Visitors, and Growing Up
There are now four interns (including myself) at the office and two high school students that come help out on certain days. That's a lot! That has been a bit crazy as there aren't even enough desks for us all to sit at sometimes, and there was some confusion with a lot of things going on. I'm glad I was the second one to start, as I got to claim a desk and don't ever end up sitting without a phone or a computer. It is also nice just because I know how to do everything and the whole office knows me fairly well so they ask me to do things for them usually before they ask the newer girls. It definitely puts the pressure on to stand out when there are so many of us though.
I got to sit in the gallery in the house chambers on Thursday morning, which I've been wanting to do since I've been here. It was a great time to be there watching. When we got there, they were debating on the Stock Act which would outlaw insider trading among congressmen. It was pretty unanimous that insider trading should be illegal, but the democrats were struggling with some of the other stuff that was stuck in the bill they didn't like. Nancy Pelosi then got up and gave a speech urging the dems to pass it and send it to conference, as these negative parts of it could be changed then. Watching votes is pretty exciting. Most of the time there aren't many congressmen in the chambers, but when they vote, they all have to be there so an alarm sounds and they all come from their offices to put in their vote. The room is really bustling when there are 400+ congressmen in there. The vote lasts 15 minutes, and when it gets to the end of the time it is pretty nuts as the last few come rushing in and everyone basically shouts at the speaker of the house to wait for one or two more! These panels above the press box light up with all the congressman's last names and either a green Y or a red N to show how they voted. Then afterwards they had a 5 minute vote on whether to send it to conference. Both votes were pretty uncontested at 400 something to less than 10. Then, there was discussion on next week's schedule. Eric Cantor (House Majority Leader) and Steny Hoyer (Minority Whip) were going back and forth about different timings for at least 30 minutes. It was AWESOME! I could sit in there all day, and it was great that I got to see a lot of the leaders speak. Unfortunately, you can't take pictures in the chambers so I can't show you all what it was like.
I also finally got to meet with our office's communications director and talk about PR for a while and some ideas I had come up with. I've been hoping to do that for a while, and it is a great reminder of what I want to do and how much I love it. I also got a recommendation for a pretty interesting sounding book about PR so I ordered that right away and am excited to read it when it comes in the mail.
Another exciting piece of news from this week is that Jake is coming to see me! I am thrilled! I left to come here thinking I wouldn't get to see him for four months, as we didn't know if either of us could get off any time from work. It was a great surprise that things worked out, and I will have to start planning some exciting things for us to do while he is here.
I guess I never wrote about it on here, but my aunt, my cousin, and my cousin's partner are also coming to see me! They have never been to DC and thought it would be a great time to come while I am here. I have been getting ready for them to visit, too. I haven't seen my cousin since I was really young, and I've never met her partner since they live in California so that will be a lot of fun.
Thursday we went to see our second play for theater class. It was called Time Stands Still. The story is about a couple who are a photojournalist and writer, and they just got back from a war zone. The woman was severely injured and almost died from a roadside bombing so they have to reevaluate putting their lives on the line for their jobs. It really made you question why people would put themselves in danger to take a picture, film something, or write about it. It is amazing the dedication people have to a profession like that.
Yesterday, I went to the National Portrait Gallery and American Art Museum. They are in the same building, which is basically divided down the middle. There is an entire section of portraits of the presidents and many other portraits, including some of pretty recently famous people. The American art was neat too with some older parts and some more modern art. It was actually snowing when I left the museum, and it was very very cold today.
On a separate note, I've realized this experience has already helped me in some ways. Before this, I was so scared to graduate and have a real job. I was scared of the real world and wished I could stay at Clemson forever. Being here is a step closer to being on my own and having a full time job. I think I'm ready, and I am actually excited about graduating and looking for job possibilities. I'm ready to be done being a student and an intern. I want to be able to produce results on my own that I'm proud of and help an organization be successful. I want that responsibility and the fulfillment of having a real job.
I got to sit in the gallery in the house chambers on Thursday morning, which I've been wanting to do since I've been here. It was a great time to be there watching. When we got there, they were debating on the Stock Act which would outlaw insider trading among congressmen. It was pretty unanimous that insider trading should be illegal, but the democrats were struggling with some of the other stuff that was stuck in the bill they didn't like. Nancy Pelosi then got up and gave a speech urging the dems to pass it and send it to conference, as these negative parts of it could be changed then. Watching votes is pretty exciting. Most of the time there aren't many congressmen in the chambers, but when they vote, they all have to be there so an alarm sounds and they all come from their offices to put in their vote. The room is really bustling when there are 400+ congressmen in there. The vote lasts 15 minutes, and when it gets to the end of the time it is pretty nuts as the last few come rushing in and everyone basically shouts at the speaker of the house to wait for one or two more! These panels above the press box light up with all the congressman's last names and either a green Y or a red N to show how they voted. Then afterwards they had a 5 minute vote on whether to send it to conference. Both votes were pretty uncontested at 400 something to less than 10. Then, there was discussion on next week's schedule. Eric Cantor (House Majority Leader) and Steny Hoyer (Minority Whip) were going back and forth about different timings for at least 30 minutes. It was AWESOME! I could sit in there all day, and it was great that I got to see a lot of the leaders speak. Unfortunately, you can't take pictures in the chambers so I can't show you all what it was like.
I also finally got to meet with our office's communications director and talk about PR for a while and some ideas I had come up with. I've been hoping to do that for a while, and it is a great reminder of what I want to do and how much I love it. I also got a recommendation for a pretty interesting sounding book about PR so I ordered that right away and am excited to read it when it comes in the mail.
Another exciting piece of news from this week is that Jake is coming to see me! I am thrilled! I left to come here thinking I wouldn't get to see him for four months, as we didn't know if either of us could get off any time from work. It was a great surprise that things worked out, and I will have to start planning some exciting things for us to do while he is here.
I guess I never wrote about it on here, but my aunt, my cousin, and my cousin's partner are also coming to see me! They have never been to DC and thought it would be a great time to come while I am here. I have been getting ready for them to visit, too. I haven't seen my cousin since I was really young, and I've never met her partner since they live in California so that will be a lot of fun.
Thursday we went to see our second play for theater class. It was called Time Stands Still. The story is about a couple who are a photojournalist and writer, and they just got back from a war zone. The woman was severely injured and almost died from a roadside bombing so they have to reevaluate putting their lives on the line for their jobs. It really made you question why people would put themselves in danger to take a picture, film something, or write about it. It is amazing the dedication people have to a profession like that.
Yesterday, I went to the National Portrait Gallery and American Art Museum. They are in the same building, which is basically divided down the middle. There is an entire section of portraits of the presidents and many other portraits, including some of pretty recently famous people. The American art was neat too with some older parts and some more modern art. It was actually snowing when I left the museum, and it was very very cold today.
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| Front of the Museum |
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| Juliette Gordon Low, founder of Girl Scouts |
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| Different portrait of Bill! |
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| Cool piece of American modern art |
Monday, December 12, 2011
My Internship! and Figuring Myself Out
After weeks of pursuit in applications and interviews, I found out right before Thanksgiving that I will be interning in Representative and Assistant Democratic Leader Jim Clyburn's office in the spring. I am so excited to get involved in politics with such an influential and important man. I have so much respect for what he has done and what he continues pursuing for South Carolina and the nation. I hope to learn a lot in this position and have the experience of a lifetime.
I've been thinking about this whole semester and what its going to mean to me. This is really the craziest thing I've ever done, now that I think about it. I've lived in Greenville pretty much my whole life. I've had mostly the same friends since I was in elementary school or I've extended my circle with friends of those friends. I decided to attend a university 50 minutes from my home that I knew a lot about because my brother went there. It's comfortable. Even though I have accomplished a lot and had the opportunities to travel many places, I have never really done anything truly as independent as this. I'm going to be living with 16 people I've never met in a new (and big) city for a whole semester. This is a big deal for me.
And I think its exactly what I need. If you're going to do something like this, college is the time to do it. I'm still figuring out who I am and what I want in life. I feel that this semester can help me figure that out. I think it could really shape me and change me. I think sometimes its exhilarating and good for your development as a person to do something drastic and have a change of scenery. I know its going to be challenging in a lot of ways, but that's the only way to grow and become stronger.
This is the first time in my life I've not had a plan. I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do after May. I'm graduating, and I feel lost. I'm applying to graduate school, but I don't know if I need it or if my heart is really in it. Honestly, it might just be a way for me to put off the real world, though I don't want to admit it. I don't know what to put in as keywords when I search for jobs online. I can't seem to label myself as one thing that will define me for the rest of my life. I don't know how anyone can at 20. I'm starting to be okay with that. I'm going to focus on the present, which means enjoying the holidays at home with my family and friends and embracing every minute in DC when I get there. I know I'll figure it out eventually.
I've been thinking about this whole semester and what its going to mean to me. This is really the craziest thing I've ever done, now that I think about it. I've lived in Greenville pretty much my whole life. I've had mostly the same friends since I was in elementary school or I've extended my circle with friends of those friends. I decided to attend a university 50 minutes from my home that I knew a lot about because my brother went there. It's comfortable. Even though I have accomplished a lot and had the opportunities to travel many places, I have never really done anything truly as independent as this. I'm going to be living with 16 people I've never met in a new (and big) city for a whole semester. This is a big deal for me.
And I think its exactly what I need. If you're going to do something like this, college is the time to do it. I'm still figuring out who I am and what I want in life. I feel that this semester can help me figure that out. I think it could really shape me and change me. I think sometimes its exhilarating and good for your development as a person to do something drastic and have a change of scenery. I know its going to be challenging in a lot of ways, but that's the only way to grow and become stronger.
This is the first time in my life I've not had a plan. I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do after May. I'm graduating, and I feel lost. I'm applying to graduate school, but I don't know if I need it or if my heart is really in it. Honestly, it might just be a way for me to put off the real world, though I don't want to admit it. I don't know what to put in as keywords when I search for jobs online. I can't seem to label myself as one thing that will define me for the rest of my life. I don't know how anyone can at 20. I'm starting to be okay with that. I'm going to focus on the present, which means enjoying the holidays at home with my family and friends and embracing every minute in DC when I get there. I know I'll figure it out eventually.
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